Stop This Train

Sometimes I think life is like taking a train. I mean, like train, life is all about moving forward. You never see train moves backwards right? (of course this is a silly question. No need to answer this)
No matter how hard we tried, we can't turn back time.
I know that if someone asked what does he want the most, most often he/she would choose to go back to the past.
I know that.
Because I want it too.
I wish I could go back to my past.
Back to time when I'm still a little boy.

I remember when I'm still a 6th year old (or older), my mom used to submit me to a piano lesson. I refused because I think piano is a girl stuff. There's nothing manly about piano (as far as I remember that time). The decision that I regret it now. Maybe if I took that piano lesson I would become a great composer right now. Making a beautiful music like Matthew Bellamy or Mike Einziger. Well at least I could impress young chicks that watch me play. There is a friend of mine name reza, or many people like to call him 'omo', he took that piano lesson when he still a child. Now he play keboard in a band called pee wee gaskin. That band quite popular in my town, although I'm not the fan of the band.

Back when I'm still in junior and senior high, I never like subjects like maths and physics. No matter how hard I'm trying to learn it, I never be able to master it completely. Well I'm at science class when I'm in third grade of senior high. I graduate with score 8.5 for math and I got average 9 from three subjects. Most people will think that I'm smart enough to calculate the relativity theory. To be honest, I got good grade because my math teacher was the creator of the math test in my country (we used to call it 'Ujian Akhir Nasional' or 'UAN'). The day before the test, he gave us sample of the test for tomorrow. With different numbers and possible answers but the methods of how-to-solve-the problem- is still the same. Well not so genius after all right?

Now I'm in 5th semesters of mechanical engineering study. I deal with a lot of math, physics, and some chemistry problems. Instead of becoming a hard-scary-don't want to be- subjects, those subjects are become my favorites now. I learn step by step from beginning and it turns out to be fun. I now understand that there is no shortcut in math and physics. The only fast solution is how fast can you calculate. I wish I knew about this earlier. Maybe I would become an Olympiad participant for math or physics. Who knows?

We all have some mistakes in the past that we like to fix.
But as I said, life is never turning back.
We may remember about our past mistakes and learn it for the future. so hopefully we don't repeat the same mistakes again.
Like John Mayer song 'Stop This Train'

Stop this train
I wanna get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?

Remember it, and fix it on the way.
There is no stopping, no turning back, and there is no shortcut to happiness.
Definitely.